Your day goes like this: Get up, caffeinate, go to work, eat something, work out, drink or smoke something, eat again, binge watch something on Netflix’s top 10, scroll on your phone, go to bed. Run errands on the weekend. Rinse. Repeat.
On the really exciting days, you might grab drinks with someone or eat at a restaurant.
You’re supposedly livin’ the dream but you’re so bored you could scream.
Maybe you will scream.
Right now, you’re in hiding. You’re pretending to be normal but the fact is that you aren’t.
You’re different.
And, the more you pretend, the more it feels like something inside of you is dying.
The romantic relationships you’ve had in the past have ranged from fine to downright terrible.
You’ve never been able to fully be yourself.
After you’ve gotten to know one another, all that’s left to talk about are annoyances at work and what you plan to accomplish that week. When you boil it down, all you really do together is watch TV, drink and eat food. Even if the person checks the right boxes, there just isn’t that spark, excitement, or depth you thought you were supposed to feel.
But then, no one you know has a relationship like that, so maybe this is just reality.
Maybe what you’d hoped for was just a fantasy, a fairy tale.
Your friendships are fine.
You have a good enough time with your friends but again, there isn’t that spark, that depth, that magic, that you thought you’d find in friendships.
They just don’t feel like your people.
You might have met a couple of people on your journey with whom you felt a special connection, but you never got the chance to forge a close relationship with them, and if you did, now you don’t get to see one another very often.
For the most part, the people in your life don’t seem to be able to go to the places you’d like to go, to have deep conversations and just be weird with you. They seem more interested in discussing the selection of organic corn chips available at Super Target.
But, maybe this is just how it is, maybe this is what adults are supposed to talk about.
Maybe you’re asking for too much.
Your job is fine. You like parts of it, and you are good at it, but it’s not enough. It doesn’t light you up inside. You’re not excited to get out of bed in the morning and go to work.
At this point, it feels like you’re just working for the weekend and everyone around you seems fine with that.
But, you…you dream of a parallel life, one with more days off work than at work, with work that feels more like a vacation than actual work.
When you imagined your future…
You imagined a fairy tale, complete with a soulmate, a job with a higher purpose, financial abundance, freedom to be who you are, soul friends who got you, and some magic, like actual magic.
You wanted to be free to be yourself, to finally stop feeling like there was something wrong with you just because you saw and experienced the world differently than others.
You wanted a job that made you feel excited to get out of the bed in the morning, a job with a higher purpose, a job that filled you up rather than drained you.
And, you wanted financial abundance.
Not because you are greedy but because being you seems to require more time, effort and money than being a normal person. Some people have called you “high maintenance.” You resent that label. This isn’t a choice and you aren’t a diva.
Your body and soul just seem to need more care than an average person’s.
You need lots of time off to recharge, you need a lot of sleep, you need to eat high quality food. You can’t wear clothing with synthetic fibers or use regular soaps and lotions because your skin breaks out easily. Living in close proximity to others makes you agitated, so you need to live somewhere with lots of space.
You feel unsettled unless you frequently connect with nature, so you need to get out of town frequently or live outside of the city.
The list goes on. All of these things require time, effort and money, so you need a flexible schedule and financial abundance. And, you don’t just want the extra money for yourself, you want to use it to help other people and the planet.
You’d hoped for a group of soul friends, people with whom you could discuss existentialism, how to solve world problems, and explore phenomena on the bounds of human understanding (e.g., ghosts, extrasensory perception, group consciousness).
People who just got you.
People who got that you’re not normal, that you have special abilities, a 6th sense, and loved this about you, rather than telling you it wasn’t real and providing a rational explanation for it. These people would get you because they weren’t normal either.
And, you wanted a soulmate, the type of relationship they talk about in fairy tales, complete with fireworks and a deep loving connection that never went out. Someone who was hot. An equal match to you and your badassery.
A person who could make everyday life seem like an adventure.
Someone who could be your best friend and lover, who wasn’t uncomfortable with you being different, who loved that about you.
Was that too much to ask? Were you just being a fool?
You may have heard murmurings of the term TWIN FLAME in certain circles and wondered if it could apply to you.
You were given a double message: Believe in your dreams. But, be realistic.
So, when you tried to pursue your dreams, everyone told you that you were being unrealistic and silly. Plus, it was super difficult to make them come true, because it seemed the world was pushing back against them. So, you abandoned your dreams for a more “realistic” life, a life that followed the rules.
But now you feel lost and trapped, and your life is flat and empty.
You don’t know what to do because were told, explicitly and implicitly, that the life you wanted wasn’t possible. But, the life you were told you could have, the life that was REALISTIC, doesn’t feel like a life worth living.
You’re sick of hiding in the shadows.
You feel trapped and helpless.
You seriously can’t take it any longer.
You’re ready to claw your way out of your skin.
What you’ve tried…
You’ve tried asking for advice.
No one gets it. They just tell you to go to the rule book for socially acceptable humans to find the answers.
But the traditional answers don’t work for you.
You wonder if there’s something wrong with you because everyone else seems perfectly content to live their lives according to the rule book. But, you don’t.
You’re dying inside.
What you’d like is the rule book for the life you dreamed of, the fairy tale life. But that really seems like a pipe dream at this point.
If only there were someone who could help you, someone who GOTit, someone who wouldn’t tell you to just join a book club to meet new friends or go on a dating app to find your soulmate. As if these options hadn’t occurred to you already. Seriously. You knew they wouldn’t work but you tried them anyway.
In fact, you’ve tried pretty much everything in the rule book to change your life.
In addition to book club and the dating apps, you’ve read self-help books, listened to podcasts on spiritual growth, done yoga, taken vacations, bought new clothes, given yourself a makeover, looked for a new job, and looked inside the bottom of a bottle for answers.
Nothing is working.
You even tried seeing a therapist.
She listened and had some good ideas, but as soon as you started getting real about your special abilities, wanting to experience magic in your life and brought up the subject of Twin Flames, your therapist started getting real uncomfortable and invalidating.
She thought you needed to “manage your expectations” and not hope for so much.
She said that fairy tales are just stories, they aren’t REAL life. This left you feeling even more hopeless and defective. Again, why can’t you just be happy with the life you have, the life everyone else seems happy with? Why do you have to want such unrealistic things?
At the end of the day, you’ve been left feeling even more lost, defective, disconnected and alone.
What if this is it?
If this is what REAL life is really like, you’re not sure you can make it through this incarnation, if that’s even a thing.
You’d kind of like to hit the escape hatch.
But, there are people who love you, people who depend on you and you really aren’t ready to give up the fight.
And, if there’s a chance this Twin Flame thing might actually work out, you’d like to find out.
There has got to be something more you can try.
Good news!
There is something more you can try.
But, first I’m going to level with you.
You’ve already tried what seems like pretty much everything to change your life and I’m sure each time, you thought (or were told) that THE NEW THING was going to be the answer. That mindset can be very defeating and the marketing that capitalizes on it can be pretty harmful.
As it turns out, there isn’t ONE thing that will do the trick, there is no golden ticket.
You’re going to have to use a combination of techniques and skills to heal yourself, clear blocks, raise your vibration and ultimately, achieve the life you’ve always dreamed of. And, this combination is going to be unique to you.
There is NO one-size-fits-all answer or protocol. So please, just know this, moving forward, so you don’t get sucked into another one of the many spellbinding marketing techniques out there.
The most important part of what I will help you with will be to reconnect you to your internal guidance system, your intuition.
This almost always involves trauma healing and the deprogramming of old, harmful belief systems that come from years of gaslighting by the culture, the family system and unhealthy relationships. (To learn more about gaslighting, click here.)
This reconnection with your intuition will give you the ability to create your own rule book with answers that will guide you to the fairy tale life you had hoped for.
And, no, I don’t think that a fairy tale life is an unrealistic goal.
I truly believe that a life filled with soul friends, true soulmate/Twin Flame love, a job you love, financial abundance, and magic is possible for you.
You just have to be willing to take the journey.
And, I’m going to be real with you, this journey is not for the faint of heart. But, it IS completely worth it. You’ve read old fairy tales, right? And, you remember what happens in them before the heroine gets her happy ending?
So…if you want that fairy tale life, you’re going to have to slay some figurative dragons, spend some time in the dungeon, outwit charlatans, move boulders from your path and look at what’s hiding behind the mystery doors. Oh, and as much as we’d all like a handsome prince/ss to save us…
You are actually going to have to rescue yourself in this fairy tale.
I help Twin Flames find and heal what’s lurking in the shadows so they can raise their energy vibration and live the lives of their dreams.
If you’re in, give me a call at (952) 210-9227 or click the button below.
